i'm missing him n someone spoiled my day....
i'm tuely missing them...seriously...i can't seem to take him out of my mind...
i'm getting crazy bout how things work....i seriously can't concentrate in anything and everything...why is this happening??
someone spoiled my day today...just by what i saw...
it's not that i don't care or anything...but it seems that i'll suffocate when i see her and the rest of them?? or at least 2 girls who seemed kind enough but isn't from the day i stepped in...i truely don't understand why i myself have to suffer all these...is not that i wanna ignore them but i don't know how to face the truth...i wanna give up on that hope of ming but it seems that i can't let go...the once upon dream of mine has been destroyed from how they treated miie...they say they won't but they do the direct opposite...so how in the world should i find the path i should go? just like what Ms ang said...i have to think about it and make a decision that will make me HAPPY...so what should i do??i don't want to let them down but neither can i survive the torture they give me..mentally and physically...making me all stressed up, making me want to turn my head and walk away...i truly don't know what to do...i hope someone would tell me the answer...
From the first day i stepped in, i realised the happiness they feel when they are together...the bonding...to the type of sound they produce...their chit-chats to whatever they do together as one...they stand together every single time...that was what it seemed to be but all was nothing but a lie...they haven't been like that ever since i started heating the first stroke...everything changed...everything.. They said they wanted us to be together as one but that's not it! they did everything they could to teach us...n give us that sort of scolding...so WHAT'S THE POINT? i don't know but i'll be strangled and i'll suffocated just by seeing them...i feel like hiding or even escaping...but how long can i do that? so i rather choose a path where some of my friends are, a "no-stress" place...
i don't feel like staying on so i'll come back soon enough...
