Life is Such a Boredom.....
LiFe Is SuCh A bOrEdOm...Life might be meaningful to others but it's a boredom to me...
I feel like a heavy rock that no one cares about...
They do things the way I hate...
They make me heartbroken.......
and I don't understand why...
They're my family...
but they don't seem to understand...
What I like and What I hate...
They don't even care...
They make me go through pain...
They make me do things I hate...
They force me to do something I really wish to give up...
Sometimes I feel like I'm a little bird,
trapped in a cage that I wish to escape...
but they are the ones who put this lock...
Trapping me inside...
They refuse to let me out...
Making me suffocated inside...
the things they do,
the things they say,
are like strangling me to death...
Sometimes I wonder why do they torture me...
they say it's for my own good...
but that's not what it seems to be...
They leave me alone at home...
only asking me to study...
I know my grades are bad but...
I really want to rest...
they ask me to do housework...
because they're busy outside....
but have they spared a thought?
for that injured leg of mine...
I'm a human too...
and i don't think i came here to suffer...
It seems that only me and daddy are...
cause mum is always the one who boss us around...
perhaps because she's the oldest....
but daddy deserve he's rights in the family...
I don't want to see daddy suffering...
but i can't do anything to help...
Daddy is the most caring person at home...
at least that's what I feel...
He spares a thought for me...
and don't really scold...
although he likes to nag
but he's at least better than mum
cause mum dosen't nag...
but instead she scolds...
I don't know what to do...
but I wish to give up....
mum always go back on her words...
never let me do what I want...
simple things like going out with friends,
she never allow me to...
changing hps?
don't even need to consider....
since July or Aug, I told her I want to change specs...
but I waited till now,
I haveb't stepped into a spec. shop yet!!
she promised to buy a MP3 or ipod since P2...
I never touched one yet...
I really question myself...
if i even understand her...
but the only thing I know,
she prefers Jie than me...
It has been days since I talked to him and natt...
I can't talk to them is as good as putting all the sorrows in myself...
the sorrows that seems to be as heavy as a rock....
no one to carry with me....
at least when I talk to them,
I feel more relaxed, more happy
cause I'm starting to put down the once upon rock...
hopefully they can be online later....
I really wish to talk to them.........
i'll write till here for now...
signing off,
the depressed girl
